谎言

相信所有人都有撒过谎吧？你敢说你从来没有？不相信~
到底怎么样的谎言最难猜穿？真实中渗透着谎言，而谎言中渗透着真言~
在现实里是怎么样的呢？当我们发现真言中的谎言，相信大部分的人都会认为这一切都是谎言吧？
而当我们在谎言中发现真言，相信都会认为那些是真的吧？哈哈，我想也是，除非是在同时发现真话假话的情况下吧？
真真假假，假假真真，到底怎么分呢？好难哦~不管如何，总没办法一一分辨，所以嘛~我倒是觉得能减少就行了，没什么大不了或伤害自己的谎言就尽量别放在心上，对自己会好些，也自在些^^，至于减少的方法嘛~自个儿去闯磨吧~每个人都不同，没办法^^
别人怎么想不要在意，重要的是自己怎么想，对吗？哈哈，开心点最重要，什么事都放在心里，什么事都放在心上对身心可都不好哦~我想当我到达这境界时，或许我会更开心点^^现在的我有点自卑，很在意别人的看法，不过总要经过的，这成长的其中阶段，慢慢地我会完全接受的^^
写了这样的一个博客，其实是有原因的，因为我听到了些事，打击还蛮大的，不过现在的我还受得住，毕竟我是个一定会成功的人^^我有在进步哦~你呢？^^

男女感情

究竟男女感情是好是坏呢？一路来我都认为见人见智，可是最近的我却对这显得非常反感。。。
总是看到女生在facebook上写些男人这不好，那不好，这撒谎，那虚伪，虽然不是全部，我却已经看到很多这类例子了。。。有时我心里想问，坏男人不都很受欢迎吗？他们擅长甜言蜜语，讨好女生，很多女生一直想改变他们，可是我不明白，她们是否知道许多男生是因为女生而改变，学坏，学会怎么讨好女生，学会怎么甜言蜜语。。。虽不是全部，我却也见到相当多例子了。。。
可是看到的往往不能与现实比较，因此我们谁也不知道事实如何。。。
先说明，我并无偏帮哪方，因为我认为感情并无对错。。。只是看不惯有些女生老是因为一个人而打翻整船人
当然也有看到一些男生这样，只是数量明显比女生要少（我所看到的)
看着自己的弟弟受着情伤却无能为力，唯一能做的只是鼓励他，要求他凡事冷静做决定，我也受过情伤，岂能不懂他的心情。。。不过显然的，要求他冷静确实太难为他了，平时冷静的自己都无法做到，更何况他。。。因为这是任何人都能看到的博客，我想我不便说太多，就说到这儿了，希望他能走出第一步去放下她。。。一切已成定局，无谓再做挣扎，希望他明白，就算挽回了，也于事无补，一切已不能回到从前了。。。希望他不要步我后尘（暂时失去斗志)。。。爱她就放手吧。。。太执着，痴情。。。吃亏受苦的是自己

我的决定有问题？

不读书了，你们反对我无所谓，因为你们不知道我不读了的原因，我不打算告诉也不在乎；
可是原本决定在家乡找工，父亲反对；
决定在云顶工作，父亲反对；
两次都要我到新加坡工作，请好心人帮我列一列好处，可以吗？我想看看到底能符合我想要的吗？
如果我想一辈子这样，我到觉得新加坡不错，挺适合的。。。可是，父亲想我一辈子做打工仔吗？

在这段期间，无端端帮我找了份工，可是，我考车又要interview，且做不久，谁要请呢？再说，是他拒绝我，不是我拒绝他，拜托，请你清醒一下，part time半个月，一个月，有多少人要请？教会你了，你就要走了，是你，你要吗？一向来霸道横行的他，从不关心我，突然要我做这要我做那，难道我待在家一个月都不行？又不是说每天在玩，还特地买了书来看，搞得我根本没心情看。。。心里的不满倍增，就算有理也不能反驳，像刚刚我一说出我的理由，反对他的，他的语气马上就变了，说什么我不管了，你自己看着，我当然希望你能不干扰我，可是你能吗？不知有人明白这感受吗？还是能够猜到我那父亲在想什么吗？他的种种作风我不能说出来，毕竟这是家里的丑事。。。希望见谅，我之所以写出来也只是因为我忍得很辛苦想发泄一下。。。

艰难的选择

相信有不少人都知道我已经没有读书了，在这个月里，我打算把车和摩托的license先考了，因而没有去找任何工作，如果别人问我，我会说我打算去云顶工作，因为一个好朋友dailou的建议，我考虑了许久觉得这是对我来说最好的决定，一:爸爸不要我在永平工作，二:我在云顶工作一样能存到钱,三:能认识些大老板，对我将来会有一定程度的帮助，当凭这些理由就很足够了
可是我想了想觉得这个月15号左右问会好些，因为我还要考车摩托，不过看来天不从人愿，我不得不提早问，因为我爸爸告诉我他朋友在永平要请part time，那我该答应还是不该答应呢？我必须给他个肯定，肯定我能做多久，因此我必须知道若要去云顶做工需要准备什么，什么时候开工等等。。。只好辛苦dailou了，因为我真的一无所知，要是不答应我爸爸朋友的这份part time工，我爸爸不高兴，要是答应，我很可能做不久，而且又要随时准备考车摩托听undang等等。。。实在是不知怎么选择好。。。谁能指导一下我一条明路呢？拜托了，有意见的请赶快提出，感激非常！因为明天就要给他答复了。。。有没有两全其美的办法呢？

梦想的生活

人人都在追求着理想，梦一般的生活，我的梦一般的生活究竟是怎么样呢？你知道吗？猜猜吧。。。猜好了再往下看哦~^^



哈哈，不应该哦~你还没猜好就偷看了吧~没关系^^就把你脑里的第一印象当着你的猜测吧~

其实我现在所追求的并不是我想要的生活，追求着致富的方法，创业而成为一个企业家让人人夸目相看，让瞧不起自己的人无言以对，但其实最看不起自己的人是我自己。。。不是因为没信心，只是受不了别人的眼光。。。那些狗眼看人低的眼光，别怪我为何那么在意，我被人看不起不要紧，我不想让我珍视的人被看不起，因而选择了这条路，现实与梦想终究有着差别，鱼与熊掌又有谁不想兼得？
不知有谁发觉了呢？记得小时候，我常告诉人我喜欢看着天空，躺在草地上，不论白天夜晚。。。喜欢望着远处的我其实很喜欢自在的生活，无忧无虑不受约束，金钱足够就好了
还记得我曾和一个要好的朋友说过，我的梦想是在一个宽阔的草原上盖着一间房子与喜欢的人一起住着，养着些家禽快快乐乐的活着大自然里。。。当时朋友说有谁不想这样，我倒是觉得不一定~
理想和梦想竟然差别这么大，朋友说过只要我有心，一定可以的。。。当时我回答了梦想与现实终究是两回事，不是不可能，只是很困难，现在想想，也对，有心有何不可。。。可是矛盾在哪呢？相信聪明的你没可能没看到吧。。。一个是本性，一个是环境
今天就到此吧！回到现实，决定了就不轻易更改，固执有时也是件好事，适当的运用时，它也等于坚持，这是很重要的，还有就是失败了就吸取教训重新站起来，永远不要放弃，只要肯改过不放弃，一切都不会太晚！

回永平

今天是我最后一天留在金宝了，我收拾了房间，整理了东西，真的是快累死了，可是。。。我数了数，想了想，我完了，好多东西要带回去，怎么办好？还有些事情面对着。。。要是有车就好，自己驾车回去
算了吧。。。我休息一下，迟些要去danish house问东西。。。晚安

今天

实在想不到要放什么标题。。。只是我真的很难受，放弃读书的我其实也是想了很久才有这个决定，可是从父母眼中看得到很明显的不信任，很明显的伤心。。。看到这一幕，我的心突然好像被大石头压着了，几乎要停止了跳动。。。我也不知怎么回事。。。可我真的是欲哭无泪啊。。。很多话想说，却不知从何说起，我不能哭，不能说累，因为只要我说了，我要别人怎么去信我，更何况是父母。。。我想静静地做出一番成绩来，希望我能有这个毅力撑下去，有时自己真的太高估自己了，我也是个人。。。尽力吧。。。现在说什么都没用，已经不是倾诉不倾诉的问题了，只要我能做出一些成绩或许就会好些了，如果要帮助我的话，我需要的只是一个在我心目中有地位的人的支持与相信。。。要真心的

习惯

说实话，我的坏习惯真是多。。。晚上迟睡竟然会让我起身后一点活力都没有，我该改过来，真是学好三年学坏三天，不过就算三年我也要改过来，我总算知道我的推动力为何那么弱了，当然也不完全是睡眠关系，我自己也该反省！给自己答应，尽快办好该做的，开始新生活！加油！加油！！再加油！！！
说真的，昨晚睡了没多久就起身，结果搞得很迟才睡，什么事都还没做今天就已经累到要命了，要改了这个坏习惯！要一觉到天光啊！！！

新。试炼

哪儿的问题呢？总是心绪不宁，在不经意间发现了这个问题，于是就联想到了一件事，我的情绪一旦高涨或低落，好像就会不稳定的样子，试问不冷静的思考怎么解决问题呢？这或许就是为什么我所面对的问题会越来越难应付。不冷静往往只会把事情弄得更糟，而有时候冷不冷静并不是自己能控制得到得，因此我在成大事前必须改了这个毛病，让自己在大多数时间能保持冷静，简单来说就是锻炼EQ.毕竟我的EQ不高，必须要慢慢习惯^^
除此之外，我在不知不觉中养成了个坏习惯，为自己找借口，什么时候开始呢？其实我也不知道，总之，发现了就必须改，让自己能够认错并非常虚心的学习，才能让自己能力更上一层楼，无论如何，我必须办到，就从身边事物锻炼起吧^^我要加油咯！

回忆。现在

今天，无意间我看到了半罐纸鹤，竟然有了些感伤。。。这半罐纸鹤是我未完成的生日礼物，当年为了送给一个我很爱的人而提早了一两个月每天一点一点折出来的。为什么不完成它呢？其实是我当时和她分手了几个月，想送给她尝试挽回这段友谊的，只是当时就读中六的我和她因为一些误会（对我来说），使得我确实非常的伤心。。。让我确信到原来我的人格是不被信任的，看戏也常看到，一整段谈话内容如果只听了其中一句便很容易误会，这我深深体会到。。。因为我就是被误会的那个人，或许在她眼里这是事实而不是误会吧。。。后据我所获消息，其实误会还不止那些
回想当初，我订了一个黑猪白猪的锁匙签想送一个给她为保感情稳定，只因为聊天时无意说到她喜欢黑色我喜欢白色，而我说黑白才会配嘛！当时她所说的话其实脑中还清楚记着，因为当时是我最开心的日子。。。白猪代表着我送给她，黑猪代表着她我留着，连台词都已早准备好了，回想起还真悲哀，那锁匙签还没到，这段感情就已经散了，而且还因为我的不冷静使得情况极度恶劣。。。至今连朋友都不知算不算，真是让人痛心，虽然知道这一切不能重来，但那时候她的笑容还是深刻的烙在我脑海中。。。无法抹杀，只不过早已接受这是过去了，这只是段值得回忆的往事了
不知不觉在那之后已经过了三/四年，她已在大学里，我也不知多久没联络她了。。。时间能让人改变，我已改变了，她也变了，就算看到她，再我眼中，她也只是个普通的女生，再也不完美了。。。只因为知道了些事情让我心痛到绝望了。。。想想现在，我大学已读不成了，准备工作了，开始了我的最终计划，我为事业打拼的日子快到了，希望我能成功，虽然现在我没什么信心，但是我不能让父母担心，再难我也要闯，专心实行我的计划前的准备，什么都过去了，珍惜现在把握未来吧。。。这些回忆，等我老了再回想吧。。。唯一能让我伤心得痛到心底的人。。。

无理取闹

今天，心情原本还不错的，可是。。。我终于明白为什么我弟弟老是对我妈妈那么差了。。。唉
还是说说今天的事故吧。。。在我妈妈出去前交代我去晒衣服，我并没马上动身，因为我有些事情要做，我在等着修电脑的打电话过来，因为他告诉过我中午会打电话来，没办法父母吩咐做事总不能拒绝吧。。。我就立刻调整下我电话，好让我就算在外边也能听见电话响，准备好啦但我把锁匙留在电脑桌上，只好倒回去拿，就在这时我老妈回来了，马上骂人说：“你现在才要去啊？！都跟你讲过马上去晒了，今天一定会下雨的！”接着又说我叫你去你应该马上去啦！我实在受不了，你出去差不多五分钟，你以为你去了一小时吗？？？我便说五分钟而已啦，又不会怎样？她就不行了，拼命说五分钟是不会怎样，但是等下就要下雨了，我叫你做的事你应该马上去做，语气中明显带有责怪意思，可是你不觉得有点荒谬吗？既然你那么说了，怎么自己不一起来晒？这样更快一些，难道不是吗？可是你回来了又出去，可见这根本不急，那你又何必这样无理取闹呢？这样大一个人了，还要无理取闹，虽说不是第一次，我却是第一次体会到我弟弟的气愤。。。我们手上都有自己的事情做，何必那样？又不是说没原因？又不是说不做？又不是说很迟才做？五分钟也这样骂人，我实在是受不了而且很讨厌，毕竟是家里人，怎么这样无理取闹？我实在不理解。。。忘了说现在是中午。。。我在等着电话，你要我马上去，我也告诉你了，帮我拿着手机，如果电话响的话至少你帮我接到了，你偏偏不要，还说自己出门了，那我只好另想办法了，唉。。。出门不能带电话吗？？？奇怪。。。回来马上骂人，骂完马上出去，拜托，我不想咒你，但你是不是患了精神病？损人不利己的事你也做？原因也给你了，理由也告诉你了，又不是不合理，为什么还这样？无理取闹！气死人了，害得我一肚子气不知往哪儿塞？！算了吧。。。写在这儿总算舒服了点，不过确实没心情理她了。。。我晒好衣服了，但之后她吩咐做事我会做，只是我不想理她。。。

心中的叹气声

父母回家的第二天中午，我的心情又变坏了，为何如此呢？是我的脾气善变吗？在家里，我感觉不到我是在家里，在外头比在家里还要温暖，怎么回事？是我的错觉吗？心情如此恶劣的我到底该如何控制好自己呢？我心情真的好差，好想快点离开这世界，虽然只有短短几分钟的胡思乱想，但确实让我觉得不安，万一有一天就在这短短几分钟我想不开，我会否就如此远离阳间？充满矛盾的心里，要如何平息？心里每天夜里在哭泣，有谁知道？有谁明白？一个人独自承受这种感觉的确不好受，无法冷静的自己，唯有靠着写博客来发泄自己的情绪，若连这儿都允许我哭诉，那我还能将情绪往哪儿丢？往心里丢吗？想遗忘，可偏偏记得，为何读书时记忆却没那么好？可能是这些烙在心里的印特别让人印象深刻吧。。。我的心已奄奄一息，为何还要在雪上加霜？想我心死快点吗？心死了的话，对任何事情就不会在意不会理会，什么都不想，难道这是你要的吗？脚步再沉重，我都挺直地走，从不偏离轨道去做坏事，看到别人的不幸总是想尽力帮助，可能就是因为明白自己既然无法快乐，那么让别人快乐一点应该是我该尽力做的，我想可能要把我的目标改变了。。。实在不希望看到有人像我一样不快乐，虽然我可能无法做到，但我会尽力帮助我所看到的
只有在帮助别人，看着别人的笑脸时，我的心才会感觉到温暖，我才会打从心底的快乐的笑。。。何时我才有这个能力呢？我要努力！化悲愤为力量！希望我能做到。。。加油！

心事不宁

不知不觉中回家了差不多一个星期，这几天固然很闷，也没心情做什么事情但是说起来还算过得愉快。。。
可是好景不长。。。今天我父母从新山回来了，两口子表面上很好，可是感情却比一般人还要恶劣，受罪的是谁呢？不必说也知道。。。
就算什么都不想，问题依然存在。。。知道整件事情始末的我，压力莫名的大。。。很想投降，但我只懂我不能，我要坚持。。。鼓励我妈妈是我唯一能做的，我还能做些什么呢？我也只是个人，没有工作能力，呆在这随时会散的家一点安全感都没有。。。还是早点出去工作自己养活自己吧。。。事在人为，希望我真的能撑住并且做到最好，因为。。。看戏，打机已不能为我纾解压力了。。。剩下的靠我自己了
在人前越开朗是否表示在后面有很多的痛苦呢？可能吧。。。因为知道了快乐的可贵
晚安，各位，愿你们珍惜把握眼前的快乐。。。

夜里。梦

太阳睡着了的时候，
悄悄地与月亮约会，
开心地与星星玩耍，
感觉异常地有精神。
看着房里发出银光的表面，
移动着一只可怜的小老鼠，
轻轻地按了小老鼠的左眼，
感觉到这特别无聊的夜晚。
双手压在一块凹凸不平的板上，
突然眼皮上出现了厚厚的铁块，
就在这板上轻轻地按了好几下，
发出银光的表面变得暗淡无光，
那可怜的小老鼠终于能自由了。

梦境里是否会出现这一些奇奇怪怪的事物呢？
会是个奇怪的梦？快乐的梦？可怕的梦？
到底是什么样的梦呢？
恐怕只有睡着了才会知道吧^^
事情总是要做过了才会知道结果吧。。。
要加油哦！晚安^^

座右铭

沉睡已久的眼泪为何会有想出来的冲动？
一向来信心满满的我不知何时消失了吗？
充满毅力的眼神已在不知觉中悄悄暗淡下来了，
自己的懦弱只有在自己一个人时才会表现出来，
无法控制自己的情绪，心中一直忍受着的事物，
可是。。。这些事物是什么呢？
是过去吗？不是
那么是未来吗？不对
难道是现在？对现况的不满吗？好像对了一半
而是对现况有些担忧。。。担忧？担忧什么呢？期望吗？
期望？好像是的样子
少了信心与勇气去面对期望，摆脱一切约束去创造自己的路
看着镜子的自己。。。竟然只有可怕的感觉，可怕的眼神
那充满自信的眼神呢？我好像不知不觉中遗忘了。。。
开始慢慢察觉自己的潜意识在担心什么而使得心情无法好起来了，
原来。。。原来是我遗漏了些重要的东西
什么东西呢？我那对自己信心十足且毫不畏惧失败的精神，我必须把它找回来
不能让我的座右铭消失！那是我的特征，加油吧！
为我打气，把气打得像之前。。。不！要把气打得比之前更饱满，更有魄力！
这才是我！相信自己的判断，自己的决定，绝不后悔，只因为尝试过！

事实

在考试周的我，竟然一直一直没有任何心情读书，更在考试之前几天生病了，咳嗽咳个不停。。。虽然有了好转的迹象，可是我。。。不想读书不想打机不想看我喜欢看的电影卡通，到底怎么了？其实我心里明白的，可是却很自然地不去面对这个问题。。。与其说不想面对，到不如说其实现在的我在迷茫着，不知道怎么办好。。。近来其实我精神状态都不是很好，不过想必没有几个人能察觉吧。。。这倒也没关系，重要的是我想找个地方吐一吐心情，这心情持续了好久，也间接造成了第一场考试我只读了一个晚上的事实。。。我没告诉任何人，多数可能认为我读了很多吧。。。呵呵
明天又考试了，而且是两科，可是我。。。真的读不起劲，不管看着blog的你和其他人怎么说，但是我想努力却完全提不起劲啊。。。要骂就骂吧，我也不介意，当我决定写这篇blog时就已经不介意了。。。老是说些大道理，我自己却总是过不了自己这关，尽管我是真的努力过，但说实在的，有些打击我一直都承受不了却一直都假装。。。不对，是欺骗自己，骗自己。。。
无论如何，有些事实我不能说，你能猜就请吧。。。我倒是希望有人能猜到我所想的，我的烦恼。。。希望那个人是你。。。好了，吐一吐感觉好多了，希望暂时能控制住那不受控制的心情^^各位，晚安，考试中的朋友也加油咯^^

风儿

风儿~风儿~
请你把我带离我心里的忧伤处
愿我不再为过去现在难过
风儿~风儿~
请你将烦恼带离我的心底深处
愿我不再为烦恼纠缠不清
风儿~风儿~
请你将我带入我心里的理想处
愿我能一直为现在而开心
风儿~风儿~
请你将恶梦带离我每夜梦境处
愿我能一直为美梦而入睡
风儿~风儿~
我明白这一切都只是我的幻想
但还是喜欢你，
喜欢被你轻轻吹过的感觉，
喜欢感受你的温柔，
喜欢你带给我的礼物，
喜欢你每天带给我的新希望^^

Recently no mood writting blog, I am sorry

...my hostel cannot online for whole week already , add on many many annoying and unwanted business, I am really lack of mood on writting some happy blog to share , so I would just stop here ^^, when i can online again anytime, I will update my blog~ haha, as u know, when i happy and wan to share something but internet access not available~ so tat is the reason, c ya^^

Just a sentence want to tell here

Recently I am so busy until a long time didnt meet u guys and gals, so here, I just want to tell that I didnt forget u all even though less contact, I am still missing u all ^^ +u

就算累了。。。就算累了！！！

就算累了，也决不投降认输！

Be serious !!!!!!

I must be more serious, how come always wake up late?! Cannt be continue like tat lar! I already 1 subject most properly will be bar jor, I dun wan be bar !!! argh !!! I dun wan to lose before war start !!!! I will take care of it !!! add oil add oil!

Lazy

My critical reading debate assignment title is " Is cloning the answer to modern day diseases? " . Oh my god , I have no further study about biology lar, why give me science title?!!! this tough title make my team suffer and I have midterm tomorrow which I only study a bit. The discussion is end finally after 7 hours. It is a long time u know? Last night, we have also around 4 hours discussion about the same debate topic...now just started to train myself to talk...but yet midterm haven done study, so how? Due to this suck topic of debate, we have totally exhaust and where is the energy to study midterm? whatever, I try my best ...haiz , hope my memory can suddenly become strong...but I am tired already ...

不爽

今早凌晨四点左右突然起身泻肚子，进了厕所不知道多少次了，吃了风沙丸还是有点肚痛，想了想我昨天晚上除了吃了一个包，就只有到金晶吃东西，到了今天还是有点不舒服，还有点泻，大致上好多了，不管怎样，我听到一个朋友说了一句“又泻肚子啊？”突然心里有种莫名的不爽，感觉像是说到我很喜欢泻肚子这样>.<,一直进厕所的感觉一点也不好啦！拜托！算了，他应该是无心的，只是我想想最近的确常肚子痛，看来最近要吃得清淡点了，因为有很多东西要忙。。。

伤风？

最近老是动不动就流鼻涕，打喷嚏，咳嗽，泻肚子，到底怎么了？今早又伤风了，喷嚏打个不停，鼻涕流个不停，鼻子好像都不是我自己的了，好辛苦T.T。。。我想多半是真的伤风了

不想

不想做任何事，只想自己一个人静静呆在宿舍里，为什么呢？我实在是很心烦，没什么心读书，没什么心情玩，最近老是睡迟起导致缺了几堂课，而且最近人也时常不太舒服，我想是接近生病的征兆了。。。读书进度其实跟得相当勉强，有点累，考试又那么地频密，头天天都好痛啊。。。不过不管怎么样，我一定要撑住，冲破这关的！

该睡了

迟些起来再读吧。。。尽人事，听天命

Recover

Yesterday after morning, stomache and nt feeling well whole the day and start 伤风 at night, until today still didnt recover, what the hell it is?! tomorrow I got japanese midterm and database practical test ah ! zzz, bear it ! I can do it !

stomache again?

Taking a nap just now and now I should have go to class already, but after I wake up at around 12.30pm, suddenly stomache... and of cos I rush to toilet but Why? I have only cook rice and eat in this morning, after all didnt take any other food le, what is the problem? I guess I should check it out, lucky my hostel still have "feng sha wang", if nt I guess I am now still in toilet. I skip the class le but actually I also lazy to go, now is around 1.15pm , I might still go now cos I already feel much better but I didnt go, so bad I am >.<. Since already decided dun go, so now I start doing exercise ba...prepare for midterm test. 良心好过一点......omg, seem it come again, toilet bowl , I see u again... bye

Be strong!

Mind going weeker due to there are too many things that I dunno how to do, keep on ask help for people, omg... I must be strong ! Make my dream true !

很多事情

很多事情一但失去了就再也找不回的，
很多事情该面对的再怎么逃避始终还是必须面对。
看了这些你第一时间想到什么了呢？只是这两句，例子就已经非常多了。
无论怎么避免，鱼与熊掌不可兼得。
所以，珍惜很重要，不过不是珍惜过去，而是珍惜把握现在，你们说对吗？
虽然不知道各位能否明白我所写的，我的表达能力有限。。。
其实还有好多想写出来，不过顾虑到我的表达能力和时间问题，没法继续了，我必须要睡觉了，晚安各位^^
谢谢观看

Changing

My view and thinking a bit day by day.
Did my view and thinking improve? I do not know but one thing I can sure is I am growing through the process. Failure as experience, success is not waiting there for us, it is us the one should catch it, gambateh! ^^

怎么开始忘了

琴键那么重。我用技巧去弹奏。
情绪那么浓。我该用什么去快乐。
隐秘到最后。在我失去了以后终于懂得。
追梦若是片宽阔天空。只是我从没抽离过。

吉他那么重。我已无力去弹奏。
不想做什么。谁能陪我清唱那首歌。
不是我不懂。拥抱之后总是难以去承受。
那些认真的美好。都一闪而过。

怎么开始忘了我还能微笑。
怎么开始忘了我还有心跳。

那些黑色的玩笑。没有受伤不会好。
我们还在找自己的生存之道。

慢慢释怀才会让自己变好。
朦胧的话只是无聊的暗号。
流言传来传去。不知何时平息。该如何去面对。
那不重要。

怎么听都不腻。。。只因为有几句我很喜欢的歌词。。。你知道是哪几句吗？哈哈，虽然星期六，日有课，但总而来说，我还能休息，很快又要开始了，加油咯！已经慢慢习惯了现在的生活了，不会觉得过去比较好了，算是成长了吗？对我来说或许是吧。。。再加油咯！呵呵

Stranger

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This is a ppl send to me d messege , what is this? anyone know?

Good mood gone ...

Today's morning I forget to photostat my notes and late enter my quiz, and the quiz is so difficult to me, I have no enough time to finish it and the marks will surely very low, however, it doesn't matter, I treat it as a challenge and practise. So, I am still have a very good mood without reason. After my quiz, I go to take my bike and I found that my bike was chaining. Omg, I am too rush until didnt notice that that area cannot park also ! Oh , right, no choice have to paid it but I dunno where to do it. I ask male guard at block E , he tell me go block H, I feel strange, but I still go block H and ask the female guard at block H, she is kindly tell me to paid at block F and show the guard receipt then he will unlock. Thanks god, I finally get back my bike...Along all the process, I am smiling all the way and it is naturally smile, that time I feel I was gila already, RM 5 lost because of that and I didnt feel sad but still having very good mood. Oh ya, that time I have only RM 10 in my wallet, lucky still able to paid for the unlock fee. These all thing I cannot blame anyone and I didnt plan to do so. That is why it doesn't affect my good mood.

I am later having my lunch at Tian Xin Yuan. After I finish my lunch, when I stand up , I accidentally saw destenie and siewmin also just finish eating their brunch but they didnt see me. So I just take my bicycle and follow them just to say "hi " and " bye" .Haha~ des's face seem nt happy , but I dunno y. Min seem already stop coughing, that is good new to her^^ glad for her.

Alright, here almost come the main point, after I reach my hostel, I take a phone call by danish house officer. I still wondering whose number. She ask me that whether I have smoke and drink sendi? I say no and start wondering why she ask so. She further ask me have throw thing outside of window? I say no and start telling I only open that window let the wind come in my room only. She said that the maid found a lot of cigrette and sendi outside my window. What the hell?! It is my feeling. I tell that I never throw anything outside the window and even didnt smoke and never drink sendi since I stay here. My heart start scolding "mcb, which fellow do it?and I suspect she called the wrong person." But soon she tell me she didnt call wrong number and telling that I will be fine if still many cicrette and sendi can outside my window. The first feel come to me is " I feel like want to move out from here already" but I still answering by telling that " I will try to check and notice that who throw it to me here although she didnt ask me to do so. And I found out really a lot of cigrette outside my window, if I wan to do so , I wont throw me here la...I most hate let ppl malign me but this cause me totally lose mood. Although didnt bad mood, I am not in good mood anymore.

What should I do? Stay calm and check who did it lor... an extra job... Haiz, god really treat me so "good" ... never give me a success day...

already exhausted

This a damn great challenging week, assignment, midterm , practical test, quiz , all come at once. What the hell it is?! Haiz, tired...tired... and tired... the timetable is so bad arrange and that is so many work come at once, this is just my third week enter the class ... the thing before I not yet cover back lar! Haiz , at least done something already, keep it on, I can pass through it.

Depressed part throw out already , feel much better, take a rest and continue my work !!! +u +u , I can do it^^ I believe many of my Utar Kampar friends is also so busy about assignment and midterm or quiz, good luck to u all, wish all the best. Let's add oil together !!! XD

Dream

These night my dream is extremely weird, what should I say? Erm... It is much different from those dream I made before. It is mainly dream about real world character, I have very less get this kind of dream but recently often. However, it make me feel good, feel like they are all always with me.
Changing course is really making us less and less topic to chat and my channel is always wrong because I really cant involve well in what they talking about. However, friends don't need always have topic to chat, wrong channel is doesnt matter, at least can see their weird expression xD. I know I concern about them and they concern about me, and that is much more than enough. Even if they don't find me for lunch or dinner, I can ask them by myself too. Just take an example only, they still have always find me for dinner ^^.
Am I so terrible? Nobody dare give comment on my blog? Haha, it is alright. Whatever u do, u have ur reason ^^. Best wishing for all my dear friends.
Someone might know appreciate me soon. I believe so, and now I must also appreciate myself but not only friends.
Good nite ^^ rainny day, sleep tight, dun get cold and sick. Take care

Secret

Secret of Mind, Here is Dream World.

Changing?

Do I have some change recently? Oh, maybe, I am so busy about quiz, assignment and also midterm but actually I have no mood to prepare about quiz even though those quiz might nt difficult. My rest time is getting much lesser, so stress and also tired actually. That is the reason no matter how tired I am or how busy I am, I would like to go out with friends but not alone. These few week will be great challege for me. Because I need more practise on it in order to get better understanding about the subject that I take, however, time is not enough for me to use. Of course if I do it everyday without resting, it will be sufficient of time. But I am not superman, lucky my mum have get me vitamin C and some pills that help to cure my eyes' painness. Or else, I will sick since these busy week start. So, I am confirmed that my quiz results will extremely bad but this is just a start, I will beat u all(those subject) down after I passed these busy week, I promised to myself I would have a good time management to do practise of all these subjects and also playing time.
>.<'' I guess it will be quite boring when u guys read through this, I will stop here, I am going to rest again le, tonight might have discussion again.

有一個很肥的婦人去照相，為什麼拍出來的照片卻骨瘦如柴? 猜猜看^^

I am a blur guy,

I didnt ask the exact due date of my critical reading and thinking assignment from tutor but keep disturb people who are busying, I feel so guilt >.<, I promised to myself that I wont do tat again!!! The due date of assignment write there thursday 8 July 2010, but I though today is 7 July !!! What am I doing ?! Sleeping? What the hell ?! Oh my god, then at least I have the reason to delay my assignment because tomorrow have practical test !!! but I still haven start, anyway I just wan to shout out my stupidness here, I have no time to waste, do practical test for tomorrow now. Good nite.

A Blog Before I Sleep

I dunno what is the topic should I wrote, I just feel like wanna write something here.
Actually there might be a lot of word I wan to say to somebody, a lot of sentence I wan to tell somebody, but due to a certain reason I wouldnt like to share here or tell the person by here. However, I feel fine now the distance like this, It wont too close and also wont too far. It is a very nice distance, at least I wont feel guilty anymore ^^ My principle is still not allow me to disobey, so I still decided to stand behind and wishing there ^^ Anyway, it is already decided long time ago, but I dunno how to make the feel come truth. For now, the feel is right ^^It is still best for myself.
For those worry about my academic, I can tell u , I think and write about these didnt even use over 20 minutes, so please understand it. Facebook is well for communicate but i guess I dun need it recently, so I wont often online on facebook after today, and please do contact me and find me chat sometimes on facebook...^^ thx a lot.
Today's blog only reach here, hope nobody will guessing what sentence or what is the word I wan to tell exactly and who is the person, I think so ^^ Anyway, have a nice day. I am going to sleep and woke up earlier in order to done part of my preparation for this week.
Good Night^^

Life Road

Recently I have sleep much earlier than last sem, It is so tired to having so many morning 8am class, even saturday also have to go for class. Since I have slow start class, there is much more things that I have to learn. Although that, I found I quite happy with that. For Business Information System (the course that I take now) class, I feel like I am so miss the class when I am in psychology course, maybe because of the characteristic, trends... I am not telling that I cant cope with new coursemate, just feel more happy when I am in psychology class. However, at least some of them already my best friends, I wish that our friendship will be long lasting.

Is that the second picture that I upload fresh ur mind and ur mood? I hope so, from my view, this picture have bring my mind into peace, feel so peace, relax, and mostly when I am stay with some of my best friends, this is what I feel in my heart.

From the 1st picture, how do u feel? If u dun mind, just tell me how u feel when u look at these 2 picture. Here is how I feel about 2nd picture. I feel the picture is just describe our future, the snow road is just like our road of future, It hard to walk and we might feel lonely along this long way. So we need friends to accompany us, somebody to support us, no matter there is how many obstacle in front or we might fall down, I will always able to get cross the obstacle and get up after I fall if there is still somebody that support me. And that is why I must said "thank you very much" for all the friends that support me, warm my heart, and also give me brave to pass through all obstacle on my way. Thank you so much once again.

My way of writting this blog might be a bit formal, but it represent my feel towards my friends, best friends and any passerby on my life road. Anyway, thanks for viewing^^.

I don't know how to arrange the photo's location on blog and that is why cause my blog a bit messy. Sorry about that, but I wish u still able to enjoy viewing my blog ^^.

今早心情不错

睡了好长时间，被伟豪说中了，哈哈，今天睡太多了！不过总而来说，心情不错，虽然还是很想知道昨天那家伙是谁，不过大概猜得可能是谁了，懒得管他了，我过得开心充实就好了^^不过我也没心情时常更新自己的情况了，所以，想了解我多一点的话就偶尔问问我吧~^^掰掰

抱歉

为了避免自己不必要的情绪问题，我决定开新的一个网址，若有不便之处，请见谅。